a promise breaker

yehp... i'm indeed a promise breaker to myself... why??? cause 2 days ago... i wrote a blog entry and promised myself that even if i'm sick... i'm still gonna attend school... unfortunately... i didn't attend school both tuesday and wednesday...

this past few 4 days... i can't sleep well... my cough and colds trembles me in the dark... and i miss a goodnight sleep... i can't have enchanting dreams at all!!! and whenever i tend to have a good nap... there's our maid waking me up... and telling me that it's 6:20 am already... but these 2 school days... i just said yes and afterwards went out of my room (coughing and sneezing of course) and i told our maid... in a husky voice that i wanted to rest and i don't want to come to school... so yah... i was absent again and again... i don't really get myself... cause every term 3 and 4... it's the sickness term for me... ever since i was a secondary 2 student... all the irritating sickness penetrates my immune system every term 3 and 4... where school year nears to end... hayz...

but tomorrow... whatever happens... i'll come to school... and this will be surely done... or else... if i'll be absent again... i won't allow myself to go to korea and indulge myself there and of course to audition for SM ENTERTAINMENT to become DONG BANG SHIN KI JUNIOR... and this will be engraved in my heart... mind... and soul... still... i won't do it just to go to korea and to reach out for my dreams... but i'm gonna do this cause i wanted to pass my preliminaries and 'O' Levels with flying colours... and to get to the course that i wanted the most in temasek polytechnic...

despite of my worst condition... i'm sick or whatever... these past 2 days... i still studied amd revised... and yah... i studied until 2:00 midnight... like yesterday... studied FOOD AND NUTRITION... so i guess... i'm still not neglecting my academics... yah... you may say i'm a lazy bum... couch potato... slowpoke... slacker... but when i say i wanted to study... I'M STUDYING LIKE HELL!!! literally... i can push my limitations and i can study straight for 6 long hours just like what i have done when i studied dearest maths... i targeted 2 hours per paper 1 revision paper... and lucky me... i managed to be successful in it...

okay... i wanted to eat hot soup and i need to drink medications as well... hayz... i know i can feel much much much better... AND OF COURSE... I MISS SINGING KOREAN AND JAPANESE SONGS... and all of this suffering is because of dearest sore throat... hate it so much cause i loose my precious voice... hayz... XIAH JUNSU 시아준수AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!

***ALWAYS AND FOREVER XIAH JUNSU 시아준수***